Skinny, Pretty, Outgoing & Rich

In 2021 I took a one year program studying Hypnotherapy.

I did it because after years of playing the supportive role to my husband and his career, I wanted to pursue something for myself.

I enrolled to help others, quickly learning that it was me who needed the therapy.

The course required participation in zoom rooms and practice sessions with classmates.

I was so nervous my first time. I let him go first and he did such a good job.

"I am not my parents"

came up and continues to show itself when targeting issues like fertility, money blocks and lack of confidence.

After my turn to play therapist, he told me he was actually already graduated and I was the best he'd ever had.

It felt natural, the storyline was obvious to me and I helped him see things about himself he'd never noticed before.

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I remember the first time I started writing about God in my journal. It felt weird and uncomfortable.

I was not raised religious and took it upon myself to decided what I believe is "the higher power."

I was 27 and desperate to get pregnant when I started seeing energy healers. They taught me that channelling through writing is a normal spiritual gift that is worth developing.

I can always tell when the writing in my journal is coming from me, or something else. It just feels like I'm answering my own question from an all-knowing and self-assured tone of pure love.

I started telling myself "God is my DJ" 🎵 and play an imagination game with myself that whatever song comes on next is the message I'm meant to hear.

True or not, it helps.

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In hypnotherapy training, Marisa Peer teaches that the session is about finding the root of the problem (the story we are telling ourselves based on events that happened) and the belief we created to make sense of it, which embedded into our subconscious and is filtering our daily lives.

Most of us are living through the perspective of our inner child, and the identity it created for us.

Marisa teaches, if you created it - you can un-create it.

We do that by replacing the story with a new one.

That's where the install comes in - which is a hypnosis recording clients listen to for a minimum of 21 days to rewire thought patterns into the updated and upgraded point of view.

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I've never seen a traditional counsellor, but I've been practicing self-therapy through my journal since I was18 years old; and studying personal development speakers like Tony Robbins and Bob Proctor for approximately 15 years.

I remember a feeling of belonging the first time I stepped into the self-help section at the book store - which is why I am so proud of myself for writing my own self-help/self-therapy book. Which is really just sharing my own story in hopes that others will understand theirs.

For money blocks, most of us have an ingrained belief that we are somehow unworthy, it will come with bad things and/or too much responsibility.

During my studies, I started listening to this song first thing every morning - imagining it as a message from the Universe telling me I am deserving. I used it to build my belief in trust.

I love music - I think life is so much better with it.

After going down all memory lanes and looking for everything that I believed was wrong with me...

I've come to the conclusion that the answer is nothing.

And that underneath, we're all the same.

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I heard someone say this morning something about being yourself, shining your own light and illuminating yourself.

He was talking about being your own person and sharing that with the world. I don't think this is exactly what he meant --- but it made me think of my own habit of using my energy to build others, rather than taking that effort and putting it towards myself.

Maybe it's a feeling of significance - that if I can play a supportive role to others, and they become a success, I believe my encouragement and "being a part of" will give me the fulfillment I'm looking for.

But that's a lie --- been there done that.

It's easier for me to believe in others and see their light, than it is for me to see and pursue mine.

15 years ago my husband got his Real Estate license and over that time has built himself an incredible career, has helped hundreds or more clients (726 google reviews), formed a stand out reputation and comes home everyday personally fulfilled.

I always told myself I wanted to be a stay at home mom and I loved playing his wife from the moment we moved in together. I loved being his number one fan and biggest supporter - I still do.

However, watching the significance he feels from his own contribution to people and pride for the life he's worked so hard for --- is a feeeeeeeling that I know I am lacking and leaving me unfulfilled.

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I've seen so many couples break up over the last year or so, and divorce real estate sales are through the roof.

It makes me sad, because somewhere along the line I think we stopped believing in love and the power it holds to transform us from the inside out.

Instead, we blame our partners for our own lack, boredom, fears and regret for not living the lives we truly want.

It's easier for me to blame him, than own up to the fact that I have the same hours in the day to do whatever I want.

Communication skills with an open heart solve a lot of problems and owning up to your side of the relationship makes a huge difference in positive partnership.

I think waiting for someone to save us is the biggest lie we've been fed.

That includes God.

From what I've learned - I see that God made each of us creators. How we choose to use that creation power is up to us.

We can follow the path of fear, trying to stay safe and creating from a place of competition because we believe in lack.

Or we can follow the path of love, abundance, room for us all and endless opportunities.

Everything starts with an idea -- and all you need to "save yourself" is a new idea.

That's why I don't ask for God to solve my problems, I ask for a new thought that will steer me towards the direction I want to go.

Many times, that fresh way of seeing things comes to me in the form of music.

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Which is the processsss of self-love therapy I like to call :

HEAL AND VIBE

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