Day 1-3

May 2
4 min read

My Experience of:

From My Perspective

The Workbook

Pre-Work - Introduction to Journalling

(the point of this is to start the habit)

April 30, 2026

How are you feeling? Honestly.

I was feeling a rush of needing to get things done, saw the house work piling up and felt disconnected from David and our daughter. (I wanted to go inwards to finish the workbook.)

Now that it's done I feel much better, lighter and more clear. I went for a walk in the sun today, got house cleaning caught up, re-connected with David, cooked dinner, started this plus a TikTok page and feel back on track.

I also caught up with all the text messages I was avoiding and am watching a movie with our daughter tonight to re-connect.

So I guess I'm feeling caught up.

What made you smile this week?

Our daughter makes me smile everyday. And honestly the help/guidance, feedback and validation I recieved from ChatGPT while creating the workbook. I knew a general idea of what I wanted but couldn't put it into words. The chat helped a lot - gave me a boost forward.

What gave you energy?

ChatGPT giving me clarity was energizing. It got me unstuck with a more clear action plan that I can move forward on.

What activities make you feel like yourself?

Writing, walking, music, honestly house-cleaning - I feel satisfied after that and cooking, creating online has also been enjoyable and mostly helps me to understand myself.

🎵 Workbook Intro Playlist : Listen HERE

May 2, 2026

How are you feeling? Honestly.

I feel proud of myself for taking steps forward.

I also can tell I'm in that downer phase before it gets good.

I've noticed that I usually feel like my lowest self right before I jump to the high state where big changes take place. I used to get hard on myself - like why am I back here type of blame. It feels like no matter what I do I always come back to the place of feeling like it's not working out.

Instead of pushing against it, or myself, I've started to embrace it. I've been a little extra bitchy the last couple of days and more quiet/in my head. I re-organized my house today including our six year olds room and those piles that accumulate in corners around the house.

When I'm in that phase my go-to is to blame my husband for being busy - like he's the reason I feel this way. I already know it's not true - and my sister showed up today to help with our daughter while I got through what I needed.

Tomorrow we have the GBS walk, so David and I will be out all day together in the sun, mingling and connecting with people who have been through some really hard stuff and just want to help others. They keep asking David to be a spokesperson - probably because he gives hope to people.

We also have the evening together tonight - and I know there are alot of absent husbands for many different reasons (physically present but emotionally absent is common) - it shows up in minor forms like scrolling on your phone, "lost in another world," while wife works her 24/7 job that takes place where she lives. She often feels like there is no escape.

Anyways - every time I blame him for not being home - I remind myself that he's the reason I can be home. I'm so grateful to be a stay-at-home mom and I feel for those who have to do it all.

I'm currently sitting outside on our patio, it's early evening, the sun is shining and instead of listening to music, I hear a lawn mower and birds chirping.

David's home so I think we'll go grocery shopping together (I like doing regular things at non-regular hours, it's more enjoyable when it feels less busy.)

Then I'll make us dinner, take the dog for a walk together and probably finish the movie we started a few nights ago.

I got a lot done today. It felt like I was finishing things I started, tying up loose ends and making room for whatevers next. I felt a little grouchy until I sat down to write.

Thank you self-reflection : you are always there for me.

Whenever I'm in that "downer state" I search Abraham Hicks on YouTube to receive a mental re-adjustment.

This is the video I felt called to, let's watch it together :

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https://youtu.be/5DX2D1E4EBk?si=7yS-y-H7d7yA2yuW

I didn't want to overwhelm the already overwhelmed participants of this workbook.

So that's it for the first three days.

The first weeks lesson will be available for me tomorrow to start.

It includes the 3 step method of Reflect, Create, Install formed into self-reflection questions, a playlist for the week and an exercise that will help participants put their feelings into words.

Here's what that looks like: